These past few days have been very difficult. There are so many concerns inside my head and heart that cause every move I make to physically hurt. But I push through. I push through for my family. I go to work with a smile on my face. I laugh and play with my girls, and hide the pain from my oldest little empath. And I clean the house so my girls can, “run in circles” and laugh hysterically whilst doing so. But all that means I have to eat, I have to get dressed, I have to move. And that is a lot of work.
So what do I do? The idea of casting a circle is daunting. The computer screen is daunting. I look through my pages that I intend to make for my BOS, but nothing creative is coming to me. I flip through research for a spell I want to write, but nothing holds my interest. So what do I do?
To be honest? I got on FB on my phone and sat and stared at it until my husband called me back to reality. I told him, “My well is dry.” So he tells me to write about it.
So I’m writing. Writing gives me an incredible amount of joy. But just as much joy that it gives, writer’s block takes it away. The key to defeating the block, is to literally just start writing. It doesn’t matter what you say. You just keep putting words together into a sentence until your mental well gets flowing. It sounds simple, but it is a monumental task.
But how to do that when my block is spiritual?
I find that when I pray, or just lie in my circle after a ritual, I feel the most at peace. Being in too low a place to even cast a circle is devastating on a spiritual level. So, I compromised. I lit some candles and incense around my computer, turned on some meditation music in my headphones, and began to type. I have cinnamon incense going as I drink cinnamon spice tea, and the only light around me is from four white candles and a small red candle to round out the incense.
And you know what? I’m starting to feel better. I feel comforted. This little bit of magic has been enough to connect me to the Goddess and allowed me to tap into that pool of peace She has to offer. And it’s refreshing. Tying my love of writing and my spiritual path has been the whole purpose for this blog. I’m kicking myself for not thinking of this before, but I thank my husband now for the key to my spiritual block.
I am a mom to three beautiful little girls and wife to an amazing man.